The Zahir III

When you have experienced the lost of someone that meant the world to you, you will learn to move on. You will have to learn that you will have to accept the fate; because no matter what you do or no matter what you are planning to do, won't bring back that person to life. 

You dwell in that emotion, you drown yourself in it, you sleep on it and when you wake up, they are still dead. You then realized, you have to put on a brave face, you have to face this because you like it or not, you want it or not, life goes on. Other people are still walking, doing their things. Time doesn't stop and pause and wait for you to swallow everything and be okay. No, dear, no. You will never be okay. You will be just fine, you will be grateful you are still alive and breathing and yet you will sometimes suddenly have that moment where you find yourself barely able to stand. You will experience that moment where you have to hold on to the wall and breath. The void, the void in you is just so big, so empty, so vast.

You can't just close it. You just can't try to fill it in with something else. If you ever try, it will suck everything in like a massive black hole, and you find yourself being drawn to it. It's because you are paying attention to it. What you need to do is, you just have to acknowledge it, you have to accept the fate that it will forever be in you, that vast void empty feeling. You have to accept and let it go. Let it be.

Not that you have to ignore it. No. Ignoring it will also make it bigger.

Acknowledge, embrace, and most importantly, accept and let it be. Make peace with it and nurture it. You know you can't fill it so don't let it turn into a big black hole and instead, feed it with love, kindness and the warmth from your loved ones. That should help, yep, that should do.

I am still trying to feed my black hole with love, but I have found it easier to accept that it would be there forever and the only way for me is to accept the fate and move forward. After all, people, life goes on, and time, won't pause and wait for you to get up and walk.